🎶 Gulabi si subah 🎶
By Mohit chouhan
Dhruv's POV
No words.
No words can express my condition right now. My heart was about to burst with uttermost happiness and excitement filled with nervousness.
I couldn't help but blush insanely while looking out of the window remembering her melodies voice when she asked me to sit with her.
I was slightly shocked at first but now I was feeling the roller coaster of emotions in my head.
We had never been this close for much time and I was trying my best to keep sticking to the window side so that we couldn't get touched.
Because I was already feeling very crazy after sitting with her at the same seat and at that time her touch would do something which even I can't imagine.
I looked at her and she was resting her head on the backrest of the seat. Her eyes were closed. I couldn't help but smile seeing how calm her face was looking.
I smiled and looked away. A few minutes passed and suddenly the driver pulled the brakes.
The next I felt her head falling on my shoulder and that was it.
I died.
My heartbeats stopped and I gulped. But before I could feel anything more I felt her waking up as she sat straight.
I too settled properly at my place while my heartbeats was calming slowly.
She looked at me and then at the driver.
" What happened ? " She asked and I looked at the traffic ahead.
" Ma'am there's a huge traffic ahead. " The driver said and she sighed before leaning her weight back.
And unknowingly my gaze went on her chest and my eyes came out of socket as the noticed the button on her shirt was opened giving a slight view of her cleavage.
I immediately looked away suddenly feeling hard.
And out of nowhere I started feeling hot.
She looked at me before saying.
" Now what happened to you ? " I looked at her who was looking at me boringly with her hands crossed.
I nervously looked at the area below her neck and she followed my gaze when I pointed there.
The next I saw her eyes getting widened and she immediately placed her both hands there hiding the view.
Tf ?
I too looked away feeling myself insanely hard. I tried to calm myself.
The driver started the car again after few minutes as the traffic was no more.
We didn't even looked at each other after that.
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The car came to a hault and I came out. Her bodyguard opened the door for her and the other one grabbed her belongings.
She walked ahead and I followed her. My eyes shined as I saw the huge gate.
It was beautiful.

We walked inside when the guards opened the huge gate.
And I was left awestruck at the beauty around me.
I saw the big mansion and greenery all around. Trees and lights adored the beauty of the mansion even more.
I was walking slowly taking my time in admiring the view.
So the queen lives in this castle !
I thought and smiled. Indeed she is a queen. A queen who rules her life and my weak heart.
I didn't knew when we reached at the main door of the mansion until my chest got bumped with her head.
She abruptly turned and passed me a glare. I muttered a sorry and she looked away.
I looked at the left side of the door where a name plate was hanging beautifully.
Malhotra mansion was written boldly on it. An unknown sense of pride washed over me.
She rang the bell and in few minutes the door opened revealing a lady probably in her mid 50s.
And as her gaze landed on me I smiled weakly at her. She narrowed her eyes and glanced at me in a serious yet weird manner.
But her eyes soon changed expressions as she smiled widely looking at me then at aakriti.
" Tu le aai mera damad ? "
( You brought my son in law ? )
She said and suddenly my heartbeats fastened and my whole body got freezed for a second at the last word.
" Shut up nani !! "
I came in my senses when aakriti said loudly. I looked at her face which was looking irritated yet embarrassed.
" Hein ? If he's not my son in law then who he is ? "
Her nani asked in a disappointing and confused tone.
" I think you're high on alcohol and he's my PA not your son in law. "
She exclaimed and walked inside while I stood there not knowing what to do.
I smiled weakly at her nani who was looking at me with a dreamy smile. She composed herself when I cleared my throat.
" Maaf karna beta ! Aajh tak vo kisi ladke ko ghar nhi leke aai isiliye laga !
( Sorry son! Till now she has not brought any boy home, that's why I thought ! )
She smiled apologetically and I immediately said.
" No no it's okay. Misunderstandings happens. " She smiled widely and said something that made my smile fade.
" Aur tum lagte bhi uske type ke ho na "
( And you also looks like her type na )
Heat started rushing to my ears and my face must be looking red till now.
Her type ?
How ?
" H-her type ? " I asked.
" she was looking good with you that's why I said that otherwise even I don't know which type of men she likes. "
She said in a defeated tone shrugging off and I don't know what got into me that I said.
" She doesn't look good with me, I look good with her. " I said and she smiled widely.
Come on ! I said the truth only.
" Baatein achhi kar lete ho. "
( You're good at talking ) She said in an impressive tone. I returned the smile.
She then moved aside gesturing me to come inside.
I walked inside only to get awestruck at the interior and the furniture settlement.
I saw her sitting at one of the couches kept in the middle of the hall. I walked near her. She gestured me to sit and I did.
" Don't mind her words. " She said in a blank tone. I smiled slightly before saying.
" It's alright "
" I brought you here so that I can leave soon otherwise if I had came alone then my family wouldn't let me go before 5 days. "
She gave the answer to my unasked question.
I simply nodded at her.
Her nani asked us for breakfast and even tho I denied, aakriti still insisted and how can I deny her ?
We both had breakfast together and in that I came to know that she lives with her nanu nani and younger sister.
Her younger sister had gone to her college and her nanu was out station for some business work.
I also came to know that her nanu is the chairman of the company.
All in while when her nani was talking about her family I noticed her and she was quite all the time probably not intrested in our talks. Her sole focus was on the food.
And when the conversation was slightly going towards her parents she suddenly cutted both of us by saying.
" We need to go. lot of work is pending."
And before I could say anything she grabbed my hand and made me stand by using her all strength.
I went numb at her sudden action. Her palms wrapped around my wrist felt so soft and warm. Her hands were small incomparable to mine so it didn't got wrapped properly around my wrist.
My heartbeats were racing insanely and so was my breathing.
Her nani looked at me smiling teasingly and I just let her do whatever she wanted so she practically dragged me with her.
God knows how many shocks and surprised I have to face further.
And damn ! The day has just started yet.
Starting was beautiful and pleasant so unknowingly I was somewhere expecting the whole day to go with the same feeling but little did I knew that it was just the calm before the storm.
My legs moved forward automatically and she walked in a fast pace while holding my hand.
And the condition got more worsen when she left my hand and interlinked her fingers with mine. Still walking not paying any attention to my poor heart which was ready to burst with happiness and excitement.
WTF I'm sounding like a teenager ? She just held my hand !
Poor heart ! It's so easy for her to make me feel things.
I smiled and let her take me wherever she wanted and then we exited the mansion.
God knows where she's taking me ?
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Hello cuties !
Author's mood is sour from past few days.
Okay so let me rant today !
A few days back I talked with a boy from my class. I know him from the time when I got admission but we didn't talk much as I don't like anyone from my class.
And approx fifteen days back from now I added him on snapchat just to get socialize and we use to send snaps.
One day he texted my saying he need a help. Tho I didn't wanted to talk to anyone but out of curiosity I texted him back.
And curiousity kills the cat right ?
I said yes for helping him and let me tell you he's 2 years younger than me.
He then said he wants me to find a girlfriend for him.
I literally made a cringe face and texted him that it's not possible for me and my few friends as we don't like to date younger boys.
So I just assured him that I'll find one for him after our half yearly exams. He also said yes tho I wasn't serious about that.
I again got focused on my studies. Next day after school he again texted me asking that if I had told any girl from our class about our conversation. I denied saying I'm not into bitching and gossips.
It was evening till then. I went for a walk and after coming home I saw one more text from him.
We talked about random stuffs like our classmates and he asked me for help in homework as he was absent from few days. I then sent him notes.
His image before was of a good guy to me but little did I know that I'm bad at recognising people.
He then started streching the conversation more and till the time I also got intrested in his talks and we talked for hours.
And I was getting trapped in his honey like talks. And then he asked me about my fantasy.
And let me tell you that in our class there are total 16 students and 8 are boys 8 are girls. And I'm a repeater. So it's obvious for them to be younger than me.
All the people in my class are very cringe and they literally crack whatsapp Jokes. They laugh at their stupid humourless jokes.
I then told him about my most favourite fantasy that,
I want be that type of wife from whom her husband fears and I do not mind if my husband earns or not but he should have a fear from me.
Then he said I fear you ! And that was it.
I just kept melting in his talks.
He then sent me a gym pic of him and tbh I got amazed after seeing his physic.
The conversation started getting heat and not talking about that anymore I would say in short that we were so horny that night.
We talked till 3 am in the morning and the whole night we both had crossed the limits of talking the most horny stuffs.
And I do have anyone to talk with. Literally no one except my baby sister so if someone tries to have a talk with me I easily get melted.
The conversation heated up more and tbh i could only feel the butterflies by his talks.
Then he offered me to date him and in the flow of the conversation I also said yes.
I then said we won't be doing stuff that isn't meant to do in our age and if he really wants me then he should take our relationship till marriage.
I assured him that I'll not leave him until he does. And he also did many promises saying he won't hurt me he won't leave me bla bla bla.
And seriously cuties ! He's a player of words. He literally manipulated me by his talks.
We decided to meet next day after school.
I told him to keep our relationship private and he also agreed on that.
He promised to meet me at 6:30 and I was there on time. And if you know the winter had started so I was feeling cold too.
I texted him at 6: 45 after waiting for literally fifteen minutes. He came and we talked about the girl with whom he gets shipped with by his friends. I told him strictly that he's not allowed to look at any girl while dating me.
My girl classmates also ships me with a boy so I also Denied them to not do that.
We talked and he asked for a kiss i had promised him. I too agreed and gave him a peck on his cheeks. He returned the same gesture.
After talking for some more time we both went for home.
The whole way I was thinking about our meet up. But deep inside I was slightly feeling that this isn't gonna stay for a long time.
But I also hadn't expected what happened next.
After coming home I texted him asking if he's regretting on whatever happened between us ? And guess what happened...he said yes.
And my already broken heart broke even more.
I asked him why he did that promises then he said :
" I don't deserve you ! Karma will fvck me etc etc " to get rid of me.
We had an argument and I was literally shaking out of pain.
I too agreed to break up. He also asked to me be friends with benefits with him but I denied.
And honestly I do not like that stuffs. Friends with benefits, situationships and more gen-z stuffs.
He asked for sometime but I denied not knowing whether if he's saying the truth or not.
I literally didn't expected from him to act like this after doing those big and cheesy promises last night.
I became blind and trusted him without knowing the consequences.
And let me tell you what happened after he cut off ties with me.
It was a one day relationship right? So it shouldn't be hurt that much right? But it did ! It hurted like bitch !
For literally 5 days I was surviving in water and light snacks. I didn't felt like eating or doing anything.
Exams were on the head and here I was crying whole day without even giving a shit to my studies.
I tried to move on ! I shared it with my sister and she said the same.
She is 2 years younger than me but still more mature than me. And let me tell you my mother passed away when I was in fourth standard.
Currently we live with my step mum. And no she isn't that much toxic but a little that I can handle myself.
I listened to wizard liz videos and many more move on tips. But I couldn't help but think about him all the time.
The way he talks.
The way he smiles.
The way he touched me.
The way he kissed me. Etc etc
I then had a talk with myself and I tried to make me understand as much I could.
I gave myself three reasons.
I. I didn't got attached to him emotionally I got attached to him physically.
II. He isn't my fictional type.
III. He didn't gave a shit about my feelings he just used me for a night to do horny talks and left me.
IV. He made me wait for him in such cold weather.
V. I never liked him...I just liked the attention he gave me.
And many more reasons to make myself understand that he isn't meant to be with me. I deserve better and many more.
But guess what? Nothing helped me out.
And it will be a lie if I say I wasn't at fault but not completely.
My mistakes are as follows :-
I. I shouldn't have said a yes to help him.
II. I shouldn't have talked to him that much ignoring my sleep schedule and studies.
Even after reading Wattpad and watching kdramas how I fell for his bare minimums ? I'm seriously regretting for lowering my standards for him.
But I'm not a person who believes in repeating mistakes.
And my biggest mistakes - I literally get attached to anyone very easily and somewhere it's because of the lack of love I feel.
I crave love and that's what I tried to find in him not knowing he isn't that much serious as he shows.
A week is about to pass since that happened and I'm slowly moving on. You know I suck at moving on from things and people but once if I did then nobody could make me feel the same for that person.
Not even God.
And after counting him now I have now 5 exes I have moved on from.
Red flag ? Yes I am ! 💀👍🏻
And now some of you would say that I deserved whatever happened with me but trust me !
I may have exes but I'm a person who stays loyal with one so I don't think I deserve whatever happened and if yes then who gives a fuck now ?
The reason for my past breakups was also attachment issues of mine and the way I trust people so easily would be my death on day.
I started creating fake scenarios with that person...I started to expect that person to keep me happy.
And trust me, nothing more hurts than having your expectations and hopes getting shattered right infront of your eyes.
And now I'm seriously regretting for everything happened...but what can I do now. Nothing.
For now I'll just try to not increase the numbers of exes in my life and now I'll wait for my ideal type and even If I didn't get him I'll be there for myself.
I have moved on from him like I did with my past exes and now it's a serious promise me to me that from now on I won't be wasting my time on something I don't have a future with.
And a lesson I learned is.
" At the end of everything, everyone leaves but the one who stays with you is you yourself"
Lack of self love pushed me in that condition. And do not worry I'm fine now.
Slowly healing and learning the lessons whatever life teaches.
Not gonna strech this already huge A/N !
I'm ending my words here !
I had also written my whole experience in my diary so if you wanna know in detail then let me know in comments.
And don't curse that boy ! We both were at fault.
Most important tip :
Relationships only works when the man loves more.
I don't believed that but now I think I do.
We both used and get attracted to
each other physically and I just got attached to him a little bit in an emotional way so yeah I'm bearing the consequences.
Praying for the best for myself I would now say bye.
Thank you so much for reading my rants.
I'm really grateful.
Don't worry about updates! I'm okay now.
Let me know if you liked the chapter!
I know you did 🌝
Stay tuned.
Till then bye bye.
Your author.
Aeenv 🎀 ✨
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