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I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid...
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more...
all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me...
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more...
One step closer
One step closer...
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Aakriti's POV
I held my head in my hands and pressed it together to get some relief from my headache. But somewhere I'm used to it.
Yes I'm a migraine patient and the type of headache I bear daily is anything but normal. But do I look like a give a shit ?
No way.
The disease I have is indescribable. It isn't just only normal migraine but something more than that.
Flashback a few years ago
" So doctor what it is ? " I asked
" See...the things I'm going to say might be shocking but you are suffering from migraine which causes you the headache."
He said and I felt a pang in my chest. I gulped looking down. My eyes started getting moist but I controlled myself somehow.
" But it's not just that. You had a different kind of disease and that's called XYZ. In this your brain in strongly connected to your heart. The things your heart will feel will also effect your brain. "
" For instance if you had a heartbreak and that will instantly effect your brain. That simply means your heart is responsible for what you're brain is feeling. "
He said further making my heart shrink.
" And according to your psychiatrist you are handling a mental breakdown since few months and that's the root cause of your strong headache."
He said and I just sat dumbfounded still comprehending what the shit happened to me.
" So what's the solution or I'm going to live like this my whole life ? "
I asked.
" There is no medicational cure for this but I am not saying you'll live like this
always. " He said and I tiny ray of hope took birth in me.
" Wh-what is it ? " I asked.
" The only cure of this problem is love. "
He said the word I hate the most.
" Love ? " I chuckled.
" Let me explain first. See
No matter how hard and cold we try to become but at the end of the day we are humans and we crave love and we all want to be happy in our lives."
He said explaining me. Although it wasn't making any sense to me but still I nodded and choose to listen quietly.
" Just like we need food water and oxygen to survive we also need love...not for survival but for living. And I don't think I need to differentiate surviving and living "
He continued.
" So the only cure is love. Try to feel the love miss Malhotra. It's a very beautiful medicine. And I am not saying to find a person to be loved from "
" Actually we don't actually need someone to love us. We are enough for ourselves. "
" So the things I am saying is try to love yourself. Make yourself feel loved. And no one can love us more better than us only. "
He spoke calmly known to the fact I was completely alone and lonely too.
" You are strong and I believe that you can overcome this. Just make yourself feel loved. Love yourself the way you want to be loved. "
" Like take yourself on solo dates movies shopping and also to roam around. Whenever you feel low just console yourself. Say yourself the things you want to hear. This is how self love feels. "
" And whenever you'll feel weak please do not coat yourself with the words ' I m strong ' this will make you hollow from inside. Instead just feel the weakness and do the things you think will make you feel strong. "
" That's all I can say and still if you have any problem then please remind yourself that your doctor and your psychiatrist both are always with you to take help from. "
" Just heal Aakriti. We are with you. "
He said making my inner turmoil calm a little.
Flashback ends.
I remember how I had tried all the ways he said to make myself feel loved and the thing is... it's working somehow.
I am healing slowly.
' But remember one thing do not take stress or the condition will be even worse. And please stay away from toxicity because your heart isn't strong enough to bear any kind of heartbreaks or mental breakdown. I don't want to say this but it can even cause death from heart attack '
I remembered the doctor's words I heard few years back.
" Why ? " Shreyansh said making me come out from my thoughts.
" What why ? " I asked.
" I mean how did you got convinced so easily ? I have seen past PAs of yours and I think they were as same as him. Same degree same qualifications. "
He said I remembered the person who was present in my cabin a few moments ago.
The way he was saying more than praising himself infront of me was something I got triggered with.
I could easily sense the confident and challenging tone of him. The challenges are something I couldn't deny ever.
The way he was saying that he'll prove himself was something like... He may want to prove me wrong.
And none of my ex PAs had ever tried to prove themselves. The fear they had of me could be the reason for it.
When I stared in his eyes I can see anything but fear of me. The way he was not afraid to bear me was something irresistible. So I gave him the chance.
" I just gave him the chance to prove himself. Let's see how he will also get afraid and will ran from here like every PA of mine. "
" Working with Aakriti Malhotra is anything but definitely not easy. " I said and shreyansh nodded.
" Don't think much. I don't see it more than any random descision of mine " I ended the topic with that.
Another wave of pain ran through my head and I sighed deeply. Maybe he noticed it.
" Are you again having those
headaches ? " He asked.
Although everyone in my family knows about it but that was not something I wanted. I didn't wanted anyone to be known what's my weakness and currently this disease is my weakness.
But my acting skills are great. I literally act like I didn't feel anything and people think I am healed now. But only I know the reality.
That's why I prefer to live in my office most of time. The only comforting place I have. At home I am surrounded by many so I just act up but here I don't need to act.
And due to this shreyansh also knew about my disease. He forced me alot to tell him.
Today I was thinking of staying in my office penthouse only but seems like I have to go home because nanu said so.
They are my only family. Words aren't enough to tell how much they care for me but maybe I don't deserve any of their love and affection.
Cause I am like this only. In my father's words the most undeserving and ungrateful...
" Nothing serious... Like always " I lied.
" See... You don't have to act here. " He said calmy and I looked at him.
" Wait here I'll go and bring your medicines " He said and left without waiting for my answer.
He is literally the most calm and simple person I have seen. He is like this only. Caring to everyone around him. The only weakness of him is he can't see anyone in pain.
' I just can't see anyone in pain because I know how bad it feels '
I chuckled remembering his words. Ignoring all my life problems I engulfed myself in work.
I reviewed few pending files and scheduled my few meetings after half day.
Agghhh !! I can't work like this. These things are suppose to be managed by my PA. Since few weeks I had to manage everything of my own.
And to be honest PA would be more helpful. Doing this much along with my work is really exausting.
Credit goes to me. I fired them all. But now from tomorrow the new PA will handle all these. Let's see how many days he's gonna stay.
But this time I'll keep a few more people for the post as backup so I didn't have to work double.
Shreyansh is also busy with company deals these days so I didn't bother him.
Meanwhile shreyansh was also back. He entered inside with a brown paper bag.
Medicines I guess.
He kept the bag on my table and said.
" Have these pain killers... I had sent someone to bring your medicines from home. " He said and my eyes widened.
" WTF ?? Why you sent someone ? I was literally hiding my medicines from my family and you ?? " I asked panicking.
Due to speaking loudly my head again started aching hard.
He first got him sitted on the chair infront of mine and then spoke looking in my eyes.
" Your doctor had sent a few more at my house when you were on the business trip so I sent him to my apartment to bring them. "
he said and I finally got relieved.
" But I don't understand why the heck you're acting as you are okay ? I mean they are your family...they should be known about your condition and if I am not wrong it's getting worse now.
Right ? "
He said and even I couldn't find the answer.
Why the heck I am hiding from them ?
Maybe I don't want them to be worried.
Or because if Nanu knew then he won't let me work until I fully recover.
Or because I don't want anyone to feel sympathetic for me ? I don't want anyone to know my weakness.
I shrugged the thoughts away when I felt my my head panging with pain.
I palmed my head massaging them slightly.
" Have this " He forwarded a pill with a glass of water to me.
And like always I didn't feel strengthen enough to argue so I took them.
Tossing the pill in my mouth I gulped it down with the help of water.
" How's the deal with rajvansh corporation is going ? Did they agreed ? "
I asked.
" How they won't ? after all they are getting opportunity to work with our company and that will boost their company's reputation " He said.
" Cool then " I said smirking a little.
" what about that traitor ? Did he opened his mouth ? "
I asked referring to certain someone. His eyes became dark and serious all of sudden.
" Not yet but soon he will. " He said with determination.
" Ask him to spill whatever he knows otherwise when I'll make him spill in my way then he well know I'll make him suffer to even breath "
I said and anger rushed in my body. My jaw clenched remember that bastard's face.
" I'll try to make him today otherwise you're welcome in the basement tomorrow " He said referring to the place where we had kept half dead him.
"and I think you should take rest a bit. You're over working now days. Rest today and from tomorrow things will be easy as your PA will be there to help you"
He said but today my aim was to go home as late I can. I nodded at him.
" Okay I'll leave now " He said and I closed my eyes leaning backward on the headrest of the chair.
But I opened my eyes as I heard a familiar voice. I looked in the direction of the door and...
Seems like shreyansh fell. But on whom ? There was someone under him.
I stood up and walked near him and the next second I was shocked as hell.
WTH ???
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